This is blog of a woman who didn't know what she wanted and so chased after dreams and men in search of the answers...drunken hilarity ensued. Then one day she met a man who was everything she wanted, but he wasn't so sure. Then she did the unthinkable; after they broke up she gave him this blog address and she let him into her mind as well as her heart. Unbelievably, even after sorting through the sordid archives of failed relationships, one night stands and her lusty (and embarassing) pursuit to secure the heart of a certain young line cook, John somehow managed to fall in love with her too. Melina and John were married a little over six months after they started dating, running away to Las Vegas to seal the deal. You can imagine what the over/under bet was to see if they'd even make it a year!! Over a year later and they are still going strong...this blog has become their story. Need to tell me something? Email me at Melinalovesjohnny at gmail dot com
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Friday, February 17, 2006
An Invitation to My Mind
I want to be able to share my blog with John at times.

At times I don't.

Most of the time I don't want to share my archives with John at all...the ridiculousness of Derek...the fact that he and Derek grew up together, went to high school together. I speak of my "love" for Derek as a footnote when John and I talk, not as impetus to start a blog.

If I share it with him, I can't take it won't be a pure outlet anymore because I will have an audience. I'm leaning towards not telling him about it...but I feel weird not telling him.
What's a girl to do?
posted by Melina at 3:00 PM