This is blog of a woman who didn't know what she wanted and so chased after dreams and men in search of the answers...drunken hilarity ensued. Then one day she met a man who was everything she wanted, but he wasn't so sure. Then she did the unthinkable; after they broke up she gave him this blog address and she let him into her mind as well as her heart. Unbelievably, even after sorting through the sordid archives of failed relationships, one night stands and her lusty (and embarassing) pursuit to secure the heart of a certain young line cook, John somehow managed to fall in love with her too. Melina and John were married a little over six months after they started dating, running away to Las Vegas to seal the deal. You can imagine what the over/under bet was to see if they'd even make it a year!! Over a year later and they are still going strong...this blog has become their story. Need to tell me something? Email me at Melinalovesjohnny at gmail dot com
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Sunday, April 24, 2005
Say It With Me Now... J-E-A-L-O-U-S-Y
Jealousy is a powerful motivator, that's for sure. I have nothing but time on my hands to sit and think and when I think...Something bad usually comes from it. I decided to call Matty. I did it for several reasons (I think). 1. I wanted to see if he would answer. 2. Even though he went home with another girl (and that's not definite), this is the nature of our "relationship". He has to deal with the fact that I slept with Todd again, and I have to deal with the girl from the bar. Although I have to say that I suffered a couple pangs of jealousy today thinking about him. So sharp these pangs were, that to be honest, I would've considered packing in the plans for seducing Drk and just settle down with Matty. But alas, Matty's a rolling stone, and a rolling stone gathers no moss. So I doubt that I will even entertain that thought longer than this evening. 3. Let's be honest, I could go for a little bit of Matty's magic in the sack. I'm such a fiend, give me sex one day and I spend the rest of my time trying to figure out how I'm going to get more and deciding on who's going to give it to me. 4. I had to extend my olive branch of a phone call because I have a small feeling that I was being taught "a lesson" last night for refusing to return his calls all week long.

So long story short. I call. I get kicked over to voice mail and I just leave him a message saying that I've gotten most of my work done for work tomorrow and that I have nothing but time and a big bed. Well that was about an hour ago and he hasn't called. I hate being taught a lesson. Chelle said that he'll call tomorrow. I'm not too worried about it, whether he calls tomorrow or ever because this jealousy thing has me more than a little spooked. If feelings beyond friendship, camaraderie and lust get involved things could get messy.
posted by Melina at 8:21 PM